Mental health woes
Jul. 21st, 2025 02:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
So I am taking those pills that supposedly help with my OCD and all that. Not sure if it is working being that such things try to creep in with a daily dose of paranoia and nonsense, although it feels like I am getting more dazed and lethargic, along with that thing about condensing libido in males. Which is annoying
Not that I am sexually active at the moment or anything, but it still annoying feeling like youre neutered, and the fact that this stupid medication actually doesn't prevent from things like ejaculation more than forcing your body to have a LATENT reaction instead, which is worse and more embarrassing.
I will seek another medication that goes easy on my netherparts in the meantime.
I hate pills. I wish I could do more without them with this horrid mental health of mine.
Not that I am sexually active at the moment or anything, but it still annoying feeling like youre neutered, and the fact that this stupid medication actually doesn't prevent from things like ejaculation more than forcing your body to have a LATENT reaction instead, which is worse and more embarrassing.
I will seek another medication that goes easy on my netherparts in the meantime.
I hate pills. I wish I could do more without them with this horrid mental health of mine.
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Jul. 20th, 2025 11:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Where is the joy?
Where are the laughs?
Sweeties are still away.
I can't help but be sad.
I'm doing all I can.
Being all I am,
And yet I still miss them.
Praying, hoping, waiting
Praying, hoping, waiting
Rinse and repeat
Rinse and repeat...
I'm sure they do,
Miss me too.
I feel so very blue...
Want to know where they are.
How close or how far?
Hurts a lot to be apart.
Didn't want to separate
Difficult decision I had to make.
'Til I move to a better place,
I'll have to deal with this pain.
Oh kitties, I love you.
What more can I do?
My big heart be true.
I love you, I love you.
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
Oh ohhh I miss you.
I miss you!
Where are the laughs?
Sweeties are still away.
I can't help but be sad.
I'm doing all I can.
Being all I am,
And yet I still miss them.
Praying, hoping, waiting
Praying, hoping, waiting
Rinse and repeat
Rinse and repeat...
I'm sure they do,
Miss me too.
I feel so very blue...
Want to know where they are.
How close or how far?
Hurts a lot to be apart.
Didn't want to separate
Difficult decision I had to make.
'Til I move to a better place,
I'll have to deal with this pain.
Oh kitties, I love you.
What more can I do?
My big heart be true.
I love you, I love you.
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
I love you, I love you
Oh ohhh I miss you.
I miss you!
Sunshine Revival #6: GAMES GAMES GAMES
Jul. 20th, 2025 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

Challenge #6
Journaling prompt: What games do you play, if any? Are you a solo-gamer or do you view games as a social activity?
Creative prompt: Write a story/fic around the theme "game night".
Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
I don't watch TV (except for game shows during dinner, and that's more mom's doing than mine). I don't watch movies. It's rare I read books these days. What I DO do, though, is play video games, mostly (Japanese) Role Playing Games. Those games are filled with stories, which satisfies my need for escapism into other worlds. I also find that I very much prefer my media to be interactive these days; when I do try to watch a movie, I often get antsy and bored because it's so passive.
Streamed Games
I'm currently playing three games on my Twitch Stream:
* Final Fantasy V for the Four Job Fiesta, Mondays at 7:30pm CDT
* Final Fantasy XI, where we're currently in the Chains of Promathia expansion, Fridays at 7:30pm CDT
* Final Fantasy XIV, doing side content, Saturdays at 7:30pm CDT
...uh, yeah, I LOVE FINAL FANTASY. I have played non-Final Fantasy games on stream - most recently was the Nintendo Switch game Yonder: The Cloud Catcher Chronicles which was chill and delightful. And I really hope to play more non-Final Fantasy games in the future.
Final Fantasy V is a single-player game, in which there are a multitude of jobs your four characters can play as. The Four Job Fiesta is a challenge in which you are assigned four jobs to play, one for each character, and you can only play as those jobs. It's usually a fun, grand time, but I have not had luck with the RNG this year; I've gotten terrible jobs that I don't enjoy playing as (so far: Thief, Mystic Knight, and Beastmaster). Yuck! But I intend to continue the run.
Both FFXI and FFXIV are MMORPGs (Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games). FFXI has been around for over 20 years (!!!) and I used to play it heavily about 12 years ago. Back then, I played with other players, because it was the best way to progress. The game is much more solo-friendly now, and I'm playing through story on a new alt, so I've been soloing everything with Trusts (non-player characters).
FFXIV is most efficient when played with other players, and yet I do a lot of things solo in that game too. I'm pretty shy and have social anxiety, so it can be hard for me to find the courage to play with others. I'm getting better at doing that, though! I've been joining some Party Finders that sound fun and interesting, including a challenge run of an Alliance raid (we went all healers!) and a Blue Mage spell learning party.
I'm grateful there's so many different ways to advance in FFXIV, and I can do it in a way that's comfy for me. But yes, I do want to practice putting myself out there and being brave.
Casual Games
I play a number of casual games, too! These I can pick up and play for a few minutes here and there.
On my Fire tablet, I play Word Shaker (a Boggle clone) and Solitaire City where I am VERY partial to the Yukon solitaire game.
On my iPhone, I play WordScapes. My particular version sets of the board as a crossword.
On my computer, I'm playing Cats In Boxes which is a delightful puzzle game in which you direct cats to push boxes around so the boxes land on the shaded squares. I'm really enjoying it!
So yeah, I'm a BIG gamer. I enjoy casual games because they distract me from my thoughts and give me a few minutes to reset. I enjoy my (J)RPGs for the amazing stories and fantastic characters. I hope to be gaming the rest of my life!
holy shit
Jul. 19th, 2025 06:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
In last year's Artfight, I only drew 7 things. This year, I've drawn 22... and the month has a few weeks left. Holy shit!!!!
I'm currently resting and aim at mostly doing revenges until my next days off, but come join me!
I'm currently resting and aim at mostly doing revenges until my next days off, but come join me!
UGH
Jul. 19th, 2025 12:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I already knew that a lot of online stores have a certain price to qualify for free shipping. Today is a day off, so I'm requesting an online order at my job (making them do my job for me lol), and since I have free delivery that wouldn't be an issue. Except THEY have a minimum price or else you'll get a fee. I don't pay for shipping. But I would have to pay $7 for having an order under $35. So here I am, ordering some more food for the coming week just so I don't have to pay this. Jesus!!!
Look, at least it's all food and things I need. I have a con in 4 weeks so I can't spend any fun money until mid-August.
Look, at least it's all food and things I need. I have a con in 4 weeks so I can't spend any fun money until mid-August.
Recent Reading: The Goblin Emperor
Jul. 18th, 2025 06:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I first read The Goblin Emperor by Katherine Addison last year, but I never got around to reviewing it, in part because I didn't know what to say about it. My friends had loved it, and while I'd found it enjoyable, I was still percolating on what I liked (or didn't!) about it. Listening to The Witness for the Dead, a book in the same universe, got me thinking about TGE again, so this month I gave it a re-read. This time, it all clicked.
This book is truly such an enjoyable read. The basics of Maia's tale are not unfamiliar—a seeming nobody is thrust into a position of power no one ever expected them to have—but Addison puts her own fascinating spin on it. It has the same feeling I got from The Witness for the Dead, where the story prioritizes doing the right thing and many if not most of the characters in it are striving to be good people (whatever that means for them). It makes a nice contrast to the very selfish, dark fantasy where you know from the start every character is just in it for themselves (and I do enjoy those too, not to say one is better than other!) The protagonist Maia in particular is put in any number of positions where he could misuse his power for personal gratification—such as imprisoning or executing his abusive former guardian, Setheris—but he, with conscious effort, chooses differently. That is not the kind of person—not the kind of emperor—Maia wants to be. And honestly—there is very gratifying fantasy, particularly today, in the idea of someone obtaining power and being committed to some kind of principles of proper governance, of having some code of honor above their own personal enrichment.
As a longtime Tolkien fan, Addison's focus on fantasy titles and linguistics was delightful to me, even if it kept me flipping back to the opening pages on pronunciations (adored the use of the formal singular "we" and the you/thou differentiation). The various layers of manners, societal expectations, customs, and practicalities with which Addison builds up the elven court makes for such a rich and realistic picture of a fantasy court. You can just imagine how the court's current processes built up over centuries, and Addison does a great job of using the characters around Maia—who are far more familiar with these things—to help define them. Not through infodumping, but through their own reactions and behavior, which create a firm outline of customs and expectations with which Maia and the reader are completely unfamiliar.
And Addison's characters stand out. She pays particular attention to giving details or characterization even to passing minor characters, which serves both to flesh out the court, and to indicate the attention Maia pays to those around him. While a reader—particularly a first-time reader—may be a little baffled by the jumble of fantasy names, I doubt anyone will be mistaking Cala for Beshelar for Kiru, even though they all serve the same function within the story (Maia's ever-present bodyguards). It's clear what a three-dimensional picture she has of this world in her own mind, and I think she does a wonderful job of letting the reader in on that picture.
They're all layered, too. Despite Maia's efforts to be good, he's not a perfect person—he has his own selfish and childish impulses to reign in. Two characters who would have been the easiest for Addison to paint black and white—Maia's father, Varenechibel, who exiled Maia's then-17-year-old mother from court because he disliked her—and Maia's guardian from age eight, his drunkard cousin Setheris—she instead takes time to show had other sides, too. Even the heart of the conspiracy to down the airship whose crash instigates Maia's rise to power by killing everyone else who would have taken the throne before him is given sympathy and rationality, never made into simple hateful caricatures whose downfall we can cheer unreservedly.
I was further charmed by the eventual choice of Maia's future empress, who is allowed to be both passionate and flawed, and who is specifically noted to be physically unattractive. Fantasy as much as romance is often filled to the brim with heart-stoppingly beautiful princesses and queens and warrior women, so it's always nice to see something else. This empress to be may not be beautiful, but I do believe she's the best woman for the job, and that she, like Maia, will do her best.
I was further charmed by the eventual choice of Maia's future empress, who is allowed to be both passionate and flawed, and who is specifically noted to be physically unattractive. Fantasy as much as romance is often filled to the brim with heart-stoppingly beautiful princesses and queens and warrior women, so it's always nice to see something else. This empress to be may not be beautiful, but I do believe she's the best woman for the job, and that she, like Maia, will do her best.
Then there's the politics! I've said it before, I'll go on saying it: I love fantasy politics. All the fun and thrill of politics with none of the real-world stakes or consequences! I've seen this book described (lovingly) as a story where "nothing happens," but much of what's happening is politics. Maia is not only dropped into a role he wasn't remotely prepared for—he's dropped into a group of people all of whom had/have their own goals and schemes ongoing, and a significant part of Maia's introduction to court is having to figure these things out. Just as there are many keen to rid themselves of an inexperienced and potentially useless emperor, there are many equally eager to find a way to make a potentially pliable and ignorant emperor sing their tune. Addison's writing is very strong here; she balances a number of factions within various parts of the court, and their roles and positions are logical and believable. In fact, one of Maia's strongest skills proves to be his ability to trace a person's opinion or attitude down to its root, and then use that to reach understanding with them.
On the whole, this is such a lovely book, and I'm so glad I bought the copy I have so that it was available for a quick re-read. I will definitely read it again in the future, and I will proceed with the rest of the trilogy about Thara Celehar (who appears here as a side character). I just love the world that Addison has created, and I want to live in it a little longer if I can.
Tried that chat generated ai to speak with a fictional character
Jul. 19th, 2025 03:09 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It was an interesting experience to say the least. I immediately saw by the way the chatbot was generating replies on where things were heading but I tried keeping it modest without getting into the red zone.
I can see why some like this. Since its not a real human being you can pretty much go wild on what to ask anything with such bots and read their replies. The experience is even more interactive when you do so with a favorite fictional character as well.
There's also various chatbots of the character you with to interact with, each with their own personalities and demeanors so its an entertaining experience each time I tried one after the other.
But time does fly when using this thing and quite simply I don't have much of it. However it was quite enjoyable. At least for now.
I can see why some like this. Since its not a real human being you can pretty much go wild on what to ask anything with such bots and read their replies. The experience is even more interactive when you do so with a favorite fictional character as well.
There's also various chatbots of the character you with to interact with, each with their own personalities and demeanors so its an entertaining experience each time I tried one after the other.
But time does fly when using this thing and quite simply I don't have much of it. However it was quite enjoyable. At least for now.
Recent Reading: The Sapling Cage
Jul. 18th, 2025 05:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Oof. Today I threw in the towel on Margaret Killjoy's The Sapling Cage because I'd rather be alone with my thoughts than sit through another three hours of this book. This is a fantasy book about a "boy," Lorel, who disguises herself as her female friend to join a witches' coven (She's a transgirl, but her journey on that understanding is part of the book, and she refers to herself as a boy for much of the story.)
First, I will say that I think Lorel is a protagonist written with love; clearly Killjoy wanted her to be relatable and sympathetic, and someone eager for a trans fantasy protag may be willing to forgive the book's many weaknesses for that. That said...
I was shocked to realize this book is not categorized as Young Adult/Youth literature. Lorel is 16 at the start of the book and she's very sixteen. She makes all the sorts of stupid, immature mistakes you would expect from a teenager, which makes her a realistic character, but also deeply frustrating to read as an adult, particularly since the first-person narration puts us right in her head. The book feels young even for a sixteen-year-old; it reads more like a preteen novel about teenagers.
The book itself feels incredibly juvenile, both in prose and in narrative. The writing is simplistic, the narrative barely there, and the worldbuilding painfully thin. The book infodumps on the reader constantly, going into detail about things that are then never relevant again and don't connect into any kind of overarching picture of what this world is like. Reads very much like the author just throwing a bunch of things she thought were cool at the reader without actually thinking about how they would impact her world or the characters in them.
The opening chapters were a warning, because it was exactly the kind of rushing through the necessary set-up to get to the plot the author's actually interested in that I might have written when I was sixteen. Lorel comes up with this (allegedly very dangerous) plan to take her friend's place, convinces both her friend and her mom this is okay, and gets the boot out the door at lightning speed. Where the author might have taken time to thoughtfully build up the world Lorel lives in and what she's seeking or giving up by seeking witchhood, she clearly can't wait to get to the witches, and so skips over the rest of that stuff.
It's not even clear why witches exist or what they do besides run around and get chased out of places. At 68%, the entire story has been has been the witches walking from one place to another, being unwelcome, and having some random little dangerous encounter which is resolved in a page or two. Not only do they have no plan for dealing with the individuals or organization causing the blight at the center of the plot, they also seem to have no plan for improving their PR or for dealing with the "whelps" (pre-apprentice stage witches, where Lorel starts out) or any organization to their group at all. They seem to just wander around the world following magical sources with no goals, plans, or purposes. There's barely even a dim philosophy holding them together. All of this makes it a little baffling why any parent is promising their kid to the witches, which is the case for most of the whelps.
There are also other groups: "knights" of various branches who stand in near-universal opposition to witches, and "brigands" who seem to be highwaymen. Killjoy must have wanted to establish some balancing dynamic between them, but it just comes off like sorting characters into factions (This character wants to be a Knight, this character wants to be a Witch, etc.) as shorthand for having to get into that character's personality or worldview. Although the knights are frequently presented as enemies of the witches, we learn basically nothing about them (except that Lorel's best friend has joined them, which seems like it should cause some conflict between them, but it doesn't), and the brigands are treated as some group akin to knights or witches, rather than a synonym for "criminal," which is a pretty broad term.
The teenage whelps do a lot of dumb things, but the witches also consistently fail to adequately prepare them for the various dangers they encounter. I realize they're supposed to be tough mentor types, and that tracks with the dangerous lives witches lead here, but they come off remarkably irresponsible to their charges. They also seem to prioritize physical combat above anything else they could be teaching the whelps, for reasons they never explain, and the whelps seem as often a burden to the witches as the next generation of witches themselves.
The inter-character relationships are very predictable, you can see the whole outline of them from the very beginning, and nothing happened that was surprising. The characters themselves are flat and shallow and there's very little variation between them, and certainly not in their speaking style. I could not identify anything about the fellow whelps, except Didey who is the mean one and Araneigh (she will always be RNA to this audiobook listener) who is the one Lorel has a crush on.
The majority of conflicts set up are solved almost immediately, with the exception of the main plot about the blight and the issue of Lorel's gender identity, which makes it grow tiring to encounter some new problem which you know will be over shortly. These are often the opportunity for Killjoy to introduce some fantastical creature which will never matter again outside of this one scene and whose existence does not figure into any cohesive worldbuilding. (And for a very minor, worldbuilding-related nitpick, how does Lorel know what "adrenaline" is? The technology of this world is at a medieval level at most.)
I also hated the audiobook narration. I've never disliked one so much before that it was distracting me from the story, but here we are. The narrator uses a phenomenally grating flat and nasally voice for many of the characters, and is prone to trailing off into a near-whisper, which makes managing the volume a pain. She also mumbles: I couldn't tell if Lorel's fellow whelp was "Hex," "Pex," "Ex" or something else for several chapters, and it wasn't until over 60% through the book I realized the name of Lorel's hometown was "Leadston" not "Ludston." Thought she was just mispronouncing "dame" the entire time until reviews revealed the witches' titles are actually "Dam So-and-so."
It has some nice messaging about growing into yourself and accepting your differences and learning to get along with others, but so do a lot of other books that are better-written.
This was a very disappointing book, and I will be avoiding anything else from this author going forward. Possibly when I was a teenager I would have found it entertaining, but I'm not sure even then. It just feels so very hollow.
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Happy Birthday
sashagee!
Jul. 9th, 2025 09:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
She always forgets how old she is but she doesn't forget her birthday.
I took today off, partially because of her birthday but also because last night was
sashagee's birthday present--a Babymetal concert:

Babymetal always put on a great show and this time was no different--they have basically infinite energy even though they've been doing this for fifteen years. The last time we went to see Babymetal, the show was very long--Babymetal didn't even come out on stage until 10:30 p.m. or so. This time they were out on stage at 8:30, finished by 9:40 or so, and we were home by 10:15 p.m., albeit having to run home in the pouring rain. I did think it was kind of funny seeing all the metal fans scurrying for cover.
sashagee's comment was that it made her mascara run so it was extra metal cred (she was full Baby side of Babymetal, in pink with glitter on and odango hair).
When we got there the line was wrapped almost all around the block, so we waited for a while and were eventually joined by
confuciousdragon. He split off when we got inside because
sashagee wanted to grab another Babymetal T-shirt, and the whole time we heard music coming from upstairs. We thought they were just pumping up the crowd, like what happened later when we were waiting for Babymetal to set up and they played System Of A Down's "Chop Suey" and almost the entire crowd started singing along, but when we got through the line, finished paying, and finally got upstairs, it turned out that Bloodywood had started their set at the exact time the doors opened(!!) and were almost on their last song! We got about one-and-a-half songs before they left the stage and then we had to wait thirty minutes for Jinjer to set up.
Jinjer wasn't really my thing--I was probably a more little critical than I should have been because the last song I had heard from Bloodywood was fantastic--but the story that user site="instagram.com" name="confuciousdragon"> told us did make me more sympathetic. He said they're a Ukrainian band who were just getting big when the war started and most of their songs are about their experience. It makes me wish I could have understood the lyrics to their songs.
Babymetal, of course, put on an extremely high-energy show that was tons of fun, and unlike last time,
sashagee didn't start feeling bad so we could keep our place the entire concert! We were in the back left the whole time, watched the whole show, and then
sashagee bought two more t-shirts (for Bloodywood and Jinjer) on the way out. Good thing we had them, too, because we needed them to cover our heads as we ran for cover from the rain.
I took the next day off because it was the actual day of
sashagee's birthday, and so she would have time to recover, most of the day she didn't do anything. We sat around for most of the day until the evening, when we went to her birthday dinner downtown at Ema. We ate there before last year, when we were wandering around down town and passed it and I suggested it as a good place, and
sashagee liked it enough that she seized on it for her birthday dinner. We got some of the same things we got last time, a hummus and a salad, and I got a "charred eggplant" that turned out to just be baba ghanoush under a rename (I was hoping for actual charred eggplant). The real start was the dessert, though, just like last time. We skipped the vanilla panna cotta and I got a lava cake and
sashagee got a pear honey pie. Both of them were delicious, though
sashagee didn't realize that the pears had been absolutely soaked in alcohol until she was eating them by themselves (without the pie).
When we were done, we didn't have any other plans and
sashagee was a bit tired, so we got back on the L and headed home.
I took today off, partially because of her birthday but also because last night was
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Babymetal always put on a great show and this time was no different--they have basically infinite energy even though they've been doing this for fifteen years. The last time we went to see Babymetal, the show was very long--Babymetal didn't even come out on stage until 10:30 p.m. or so. This time they were out on stage at 8:30, finished by 9:40 or so, and we were home by 10:15 p.m., albeit having to run home in the pouring rain. I did think it was kind of funny seeing all the metal fans scurrying for cover.
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Jinjer wasn't really my thing--I was probably a more little critical than I should have been because the last song I had heard from Bloodywood was fantastic--but the story that user site="instagram.com" name="confuciousdragon"> told us did make me more sympathetic. He said they're a Ukrainian band who were just getting big when the war started and most of their songs are about their experience. It makes me wish I could have understood the lyrics to their songs.
Babymetal, of course, put on an extremely high-energy show that was tons of fun, and unlike last time,
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My Wacom Intuos 3 from 2004 "Just Works" on Ubuntu Linux
Jul. 18th, 2025 04:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This graphics tablet is enormous, and I got it at an enormous discount when I worked at Apple. So I've hung onto it because I really like it. But it mostly doesn't work on OS X so I mostly don't ever touch it. I've switched mostly to Linux for work and I also have a personal Linux laptop. I was going through some stuff to maybe donate or sell, and wondered if the Wacom tablet worked. It does! Linux not only recognizes it as an input device, but evidently it ships with Wacom Intuos drivers that let you even map all the buttons. The pressure sensitivity is all there, the eraser function is all there, the mouse works fine, all the buttons work fine!
I feel safe saying at this point that if you are annoyed by Apple and Microsoft (and Google), give Linux a try. I would say it has finally hit the "It Just Works" threshold at about 98%.
I feel safe saying at this point that if you are annoyed by Apple and Microsoft (and Google), give Linux a try. I would say it has finally hit the "It Just Works" threshold at about 98%.
Late Show with Stephen Colbert is getting cancelled
Jul. 18th, 2025 02:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I just watched a clip stating that the Late Show with Stephen Colbert will be cancelled within the next year, all due to the settlement Paramount gave into annoying orange's whiny demands.
https://youtu.be/AuqEZx6TmfI?si=sf-D65MM67htpViY
This is one of many things this selfish greasy dictator is getting away with, abusing the power he has on his tiny hands. Like a vengeful little bully, he's trying to get back at anyone who's ever criticized him or refused to give into his demented demands, getting results like this.
We don't have a president. We have a tyrannical dictator who implements draconian laws as he sees fit, uncaring of how it affects the rest of us.
Its not a matter of the Right or Left, is a matter of a lunatic who cares about nobody but himself and manipulates power to get his way.
This isn't what our forefathers fought and died to strive.
https://youtu.be/AuqEZx6TmfI?si=sf-D65MM67htpViY
This is one of many things this selfish greasy dictator is getting away with, abusing the power he has on his tiny hands. Like a vengeful little bully, he's trying to get back at anyone who's ever criticized him or refused to give into his demented demands, getting results like this.
We don't have a president. We have a tyrannical dictator who implements draconian laws as he sees fit, uncaring of how it affects the rest of us.
Its not a matter of the Right or Left, is a matter of a lunatic who cares about nobody but himself and manipulates power to get his way.
This isn't what our forefathers fought and died to strive.
Some books
Jul. 18th, 2025 09:15 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This is on Cult Pens alcohol marker paper. I can see places I messed up, but it's all a work in progress. I don't know if I prefer to the Winsor & Newton marker paper. Still struggling with reds, I need a darker shade, but I saw another set on Vinted that had the reds in it I could use.
Any tips on what paper/card to use I would appreciate. I really enjoy using the alcohol markers.
Sunshine Revival #5: Be a Carnival Barker!
Jul. 17th, 2025 11:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)

Challenge #5
Journaling prompt: Be a carnival barker for your favorite movie, book, or show! Write a post that showcases the best your chosen title has to offer and entices passersby to check it out.
Creative prompt: Write a fic or original story about a character reluctantly doing something they are hesitant about.
Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.
(I am not going to write a fic, but I read the prompt and went OH, IT'S ME!!! I am very hesitant about the things I need to do these days, and pretty reluctant to actually do them. But I'm trying. By gods, I'm trying.)
Re: the journaling prompt: it doesn't include "your favorite game", HOW RUDE. But I am going to natter at you about Final Fantasy XIV anyway, because (a) most of my media consumption is through games these days, (b) I get to meme at you.
*takes a deep breath*
CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED MMORPG
FINAL FANTASY XIV
WITH AN EXPANDED FREE TRIAL
WHICH YOU CAN PLAY THROUGH THE ENTIREY OF
A REALM REBORN
AND THE AWARD-WINNING
HEAVENSWARD
EXPANSION
AND ALSO THE AWARD-WINNING
STORMBLOOD
EXPANSION
UP TO LEVEL 70
FOR FREE
WITH NO RESTRICTIONS
ON PLAYTIME?
https://freetrial.finalfantasyxiv.com
( a bunch of reasons wny I love Final Fantasy XIV )
Sunshine Revival 3 (Summer Foods) & 4 (Smiles)
Jul. 17th, 2025 10:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Okay, this is long so I'm gonna cut them to save your reading pages.
( Challenge 3: Summer-associated Foods )
( Challenge 4: What makes you smile? )
( Challenge 3: Summer-associated Foods )
( Challenge 4: What makes you smile? )
trump loses it and screams at his loyal followers
Jul. 17th, 2025 07:36 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Annoying orange gets steamed at his base after some want to hear more about the Epstein files he strived to push forward and now suddenly changes his mind, lashing out and tossing tantrums like he always does.
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/trump-fury-at-his-own-maga-base_n_6877b4a9e4b05557ffd316dc/amp
This could potentially mean two things: that he either is too afraid that he might he be found out about anything, or that this is another of his "clever exploits" that could benefit him and still get support regardless.
All in all, it is refreshing to see some of these "maga" supporters seeing him for what he is, and hopefully more will do. However I get this feeling that even when dictator cheetoh blatantly insults them and claims not needing their support (yeah, right,) some of these individuals will still blindly follow him no matter what.
https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.huffpost.com/entry/trump-fury-at-his-own-maga-base_n_6877b4a9e4b05557ffd316dc/amp
This could potentially mean two things: that he either is too afraid that he might he be found out about anything, or that this is another of his "clever exploits" that could benefit him and still get support regardless.
All in all, it is refreshing to see some of these "maga" supporters seeing him for what he is, and hopefully more will do. However I get this feeling that even when dictator cheetoh blatantly insults them and claims not needing their support (yeah, right,) some of these individuals will still blindly follow him no matter what.